Wow…this feels like I’m hanging out with an old friend I haven’t seen in a long time!
Looking back on 2012…all I can say is it’s been a whirlwind.
Bean is drawing closer to being 2 1/2 and is as always such a joy – I’m more thankful than ever to have her in our lives. I’ve been working full time for a year and a half now at a job I really enjoy – I went from 2 days a week to being promoted (twice!) and am continually surprised at how blessed I am to be there.
I’m still on a constant search for change – improvement – passion. Being far from superwoman, it’s not been easy to work full time and be a focused mother, wife, friend; to be a good steward of the earth and of our health, to move forward with dreams of who and what I want to be. More than I would like gets pushed aside.
If I had to look back on what the best lessons from 2012 have been, one would be the realization that I need help. Being very much a do it myself kind of gal, that has not been an easy lesson to learn (in fact its taken me to the end of the year to finally ask!). But I’ve done it, and I’m seeing good come out of it already.
I’ve started seeing a naturopathic doctor; we’re working on changing my body for the better from the inside out. I love going to see a caregiver who truly believes the body, mind and spirit are a whole entity, and who helps me to see that too.
I was also fortunate enough to win a Nurturing Presence session with Amy Phoenix of Presence Parenting through the Natural Parents Network; I can’t tell you how much one phone call with this amazing mama has done for me – I very much look forward to speaking with her more in 2013.
These are the main areas I’ve been working on – slowly, steadily, with many steps back. I’m finding the need for patience and faith that is often difficult to hold on to, but I feel them there like seeds waiting to grow through this long winter, and it gives me hope.
Right now in this moment I feel so much love for this community, though my main interactions with you have been through social media more than blogging. I feel love for writing that I missed more than I realized, and look forward to doing more of it in 2013. I feel love for bloggers who have been such a source of inspiration to me throughout the past year in spite of not being able to keep up those conversations I’ve missed – I still read and feel inspired every day.
In a time of taking stock, which for me the approach of a New Year always is, I do feel a peace right now – one that has been lacking for a long time. I do feel that change is possible, though for many months it has seemed hopeless. I look forward to doing a lot more leaning than standing on my own. And I hope to strengthen ties here as well, and that you know I think of you often and hope the very best for you though we may never have exchanged a word.
As you reflect on your year and look forward to a new one, I hope you can ask for – and receive – the help you may need to be the person you want to be. And I thank you for being here on this journey.
I would love to know some of your hopes for the coming year if you’d like to share. Love to you!